Have you ever been to a moment where you are so desperate with your prayers because you badly want to leave a situation you are not comfortable with? I have. Just recently, I moved to a new job and it’s totally different from where I used to–it’s more strict now, there’s a longer training period, foreign clients, night shift, and the list goes on–and I can’t even imagine myself doing this for a long time. I can’t sleep during daytime, I can’t attend some church activities, I can’t go home during the weekends, no night life, lesser time with friends and family–I mean, I can go on with the list of things that I wasn’t able to do now because of this job. So, I prayed really hard for signs, for the things that I must do–I even asked God to do something so that I could gracefully exit the company. And guess what? I came across an article saying, “Do not let the hum drum of everyday life dull your sparkle. Find magic in the things that you do and always work with all your heart. It’s true that you might be in job that you do not like but pays for all your bills; but you can change this situation and eventually pursue what you really want to do. For the meantime, make the best of every situation and then pounce when you finally get the chance to do something that makes your heart and soul sing.” And that was after my prayer time. But to my stubbornness, I wasn’t satisfied with that. I thought maybe it’s just a coincidence or I must have prayed more, in short, I want a more concrete answer. And so my prayer have gone like this, “Lord, please take me out of this situation. I don’t wanna work with this company anymore, I am not really enjoying what I’m doing. Please, make me the lowest in the stack rank so that they would doubt my skills and would be easier for me to file a resignation.” And then came the stack ranking announcement and guess what, I ranked third out of eleven who were assessed. Okay, I gave up. I won’t argue with the Lord anymore.
Some of the realizations I had:
- If God put you in an uncomfortable situation, you must endure. He is just doing that so that you will grow and think out of the box.
- God knows what you can do even if you think you can’t because He knows you so well.
- God is gracious. He will always pave the way so that you would somehow realize that He doesn’t put you there for nothing. (Ephesians 6:24)
- You will never, ever win against God’s will.
- Even if you execute your own plans, God will surely take over and do His plans according to His purpose. (Proverbs 19:21)
I know that His will is higher than mine, so if the Lord says otherwise, who am I to contradict? Perhaps, He has planned our future already (Jeremiah 29:11). 😉
I ran and hide,
You seek me with all You are.
I drifted apart,
You long for a child like me.
I sin, a lot.
Your forgiveness and grace never did run dry.
I am guilty and ashamed,
You are confident in me.
You gave me words of love.
I doubted my identity,
You crowned me as a royalty.
I admitted to be weak,
You carried me with Your strength.
I was eaten by my emotions,
You gave me peace.
I felt abandoned,
You gave me a home in Your Kingdom.
I am troubled,
You kept me safe in Your presence.
I have forgotten,
You affirmed me with Your faithfulness.
I am a prodigal daughter,
You are an accepting Father.
You are my Father.
Love isn’t just about your relationship status; it is way deeper than having a special someone beside you. Trust me, I’m single but I choose and feel the love every single day.
I have this one talented church mate who composed a song titled, “Love Will Save the Day.” The chorus keeps on repeating in my mind and in fact, it became my expression already. I mean, this is true. You could always choose love over boredom, for example. Come on, the Philippines is too awesome for you to explore. Go find some places you haven’t been, invite some friends and do not just stay in one place; you’ll be stroked.
If you are an employee going through some stressful days, stop worrying. Hope for the best and look forward for a greater and brand new tomorrow. I’ve been there and that is how I learned to appreciate the little things around me. I enjoy the warmth of the sun while walking to the office. Let me tell you a secret; I always turn the beat on my phone and catwalk like I’m in a runway or fashion show, it somehow brightens and hypes up my mood. I enjoy seeing the leaves on trees swaying in a morning breeze. And the smile of those people you haven’t even noticed- manong guard, the janitor, the elevator operator- they are priceless. So do not be troubled thinking about your stressful job; that’s a slow suicide.
But love won’t grow over a troubled heart. Negative feelings like pain, anger, insecurity, fear- they will break love into pieces. Choose love over negativity, learn how to value yourself, be happy and don’t be too hard on things. Choose love all the time and you’ll find the missing pieces in your life. You’ll see, you’d be able to find your passion and what really makes you happy. I write because I chose love, I am choosing love. I love to encourage and inspire people. My life has been more meaningful and colorful when I chose love and brush off the opposites.
Go, find your own adventure, learn new things, enjoy God’s creations and choose love over anything else. You deserve it! Just forget anything that holds you back. Let me reiterate, choose love. Always.